Okay, here is my update on the fertility stuff. I did not get pregnant in October nor did I with my last prescription. So, I had to go in and see the fertility doctor. Doctor Hatasaka did a ultrasoun to check on the follicles and my ovaries. If I remember it right...My left ovary was significantly smaller than the right, but both were a little smaller than what they should have been. My right ovary had 5 follicles and the Left had 3 or somethink around that (I should have blogged about it right after so I would remember). Each follicle should have have 8-10 I believe. Anyway my numbers are sticking at the "fair" zone as far as the ovarian reserve goes. The doctor said with it being so long since I was pregnant he wanted me to have BJ do a sperm count and check that, and then have me go in and get a special ultrasound that would have to be performed in Pleasant grove. We both didn't feel good about going through all of that emotionally, because we know we can get pregnant. The doctor than gave us a prescription for Femara again. He wrote it for 2 refills but told me he wanted me to go in and have the tests done first and then we could do the femara after that, but he did tell me I could do one more cycle. We hadn't decided if we wanted to wait or if we just wanted to use all three prescriptions and try three months in a row, but we did decide that we didn't feel it was right to go through all the tests.

So last month we decided to give it one more big try and then go from there. I have felt a lot of comfort and peace throughout all of this. I know things could be worse. We are blessed with 3 amazing kids and I know that and I am not ungrateful, we just kept feeling like there was one more. My last period was October 19th, 2016. We used the ovulation tests and timed intercourse. I charted all the little cramps and weird feelings I was having and today I got a faint positive pregnancy test (2 days before my period was due). I went into the fertility clinic and got my HCG done and am still waiting for the results. We are then going to get a ultrasound done and then go from there. I decided to make an appointment with my OB because it usually takes a bit to get in with them and I figure I could cancel if I needed to. When she called me back and said "Congratulations on your pregnancy". I just said "Oh, thanks" in a non excited tone. She immediately said "Oh, can you talk right now?". I said "Yeah". I think she was just so surprised I didn't show any excitement. I think BJ and I are in the same boat and we just don't want to get too excited until we know everything is ok. It will help seeing the heart beat for sure, but I don't think I will breath a sigh of relief until maybe 20 weeks and even then I think I will still have a small fear. I was talking to a few nurses at work about the fertility medication and our miscarriages. Two of the nurses were shocked "You want another child?" "Dont you already have some?" "How many kids do you want?" "You will have to get another car now huh". Obviously I was pretty annoyed with their comments, but I kept it to myself and replied "Yes, we do want another". Then one of the other nurses piped up and told us that she has three kids but had 8 miscarriages in between them. :( All of this made me realize how blessed we are and that no matter what happens this go around that I am just so grateful. Who knows how many kids we will have, but for now I am just really excited for the chance to have more. We still have a chance and I know that is more than what other woman can say with their medical history. I also am sooo grateful for our three little munchkins. LOVE being their mom
Oh and I wanted to write this down since I took the time to figure it all out and will want to have reference:
Kaylee born 02/20/2010 (due 02/20/2010 water broke)
Connor born 06/29/2011 (due 06/25/11)
Miscarriage #1 9 weeks D &C around 8-15-13
Miscarriage #2 6 1/2 weeks (natural miscarriage) HCG drawn around 6 1/2 weeks (02/19/14-78.1, 02/21/14- 194.0) and then the ultrasound confirmed miscarriage
Ashlynn HCG (05/06/16- 171.6 4 weeks 2 days?) born 01/10/2015 (due 01/15/2015- NICU, home O2)
Miscarriage #3 10 1/2 weeks found out on April 1st 2016 (D & C shortly after, confirmed through ultrasound). HCG drawn at 10 1/2 weeks: (April 1st, 2016: 9,745 and April 3rd: 9,304) Progesterone 4/1/16: 9.6