Some days I feel like I accomplished a lot. It makes me feel good. This morning I read Kaylee a story and kissed my hand to blow her a kiss and she put her little hand up to her face and kissed it back to me. My heart just melted. Moments like that make me realize how blessed I am to be a mom and what a blessing it is to be home with Kaylee everyday.

And then I have days or moments where I get nothing done. I am lazy and sit around reading or getting on the computer all day. And BJ comes home and nothing sounds good to me so dinner is not made. He comes home and makes dinner and does everything. I feel horrible about myself.

I really enjoy the time I have with Kaylee everyday. I am grateful for my home health job so I can work a few hours a week while still being able to stay home with Kaylee. But I worry. I worry that I am losing all that I learned in school. I worry that I will never get to work in a hospital because I wont be able to remember the things I need to in order to do that.

I am so excited to have another baby. Last night I was feeling down and Kaylee just cuddled right up next to me and gave me the biggest hug for like 5 minutes. I just started to tear up. I love her so much. I can't wait to have another baby to love and who will love me that much. But I am nervous. Those first few weeks right after having a baby are rough. My emotions are all over the place. How will I do it with two.

Sometimes I feel like I am working hard at being a good friend to someone and they don't reciprocate. I feel like I may think of them more than they think of me. I am sure they don't mean to. And I am sure I have done that to friends as well without realizing it. I just feel like sometimes everyone is just so busy.

I know this is all the hormones and emotions from pregnancy talking but I just needed to write it down so I can hopefully feel better.

I know that I am beyond blessed and I just need to focus on the positive. I watched the movie "ELF" last night. I wish I was like that all the time. He doesn't care what anybody thinks of him. He smiles because he likes smiling. And he just enjoys everyday like it is his last. I think I just needed that reminder.

Kaylee slept in till 9 am
We both ate breakfast together
I got in my swimming suit and got in the bath with Kaylee to play.
I fed Kaylee lunch

Kaylee and I cuddled up in a blanket and watched some TV while Kaylee ate her bottle and then slowly started leaning on my left arm for a good hour. I then put her in her crib to finish her nap off. While I took a nap as well :)

We danced and played pass with the ball. Every time she would pass it I would say "YAY" and clap. She would then clap as well and smile so big.

Kaylee went down for her second nap

I started reading Harry Potter book #2 and then cleaned up the house a bit

BJ got home and we both got all our snow gear on and headed out to play in the snow. We made a snowman together!

Went to Tithing settlement

Ate dinner as a family

What a wonderful night!!!

A few weeks ago I went to Pow Wow for Cub Scouts. Pow wow is like a meeting for all Cub Scout leaders to help you get more ideas on what to do and get pumped up for Cub Scouts.



There was a lot of different classes. Some fun and some boring. But the one that I will always remember is the Skits and Storytelling class.



We got put into groups of 5 and had 5 minutes to come up with a skit and then we were to perform it in front of everyone. (Cub scouts do skits and jokes every month so I thought this would be helpful). Well- my group was crazy. They had so many ideas and even made themselves props in that 5 minutes. The point of the skit was to come up with a core value to teach the kids. So not just a skit for fun..but one that would teach something.



Here is the skit/story we came up with. There was a Chief and his wife who send a little Indian to become an Indian brave (that was me). The Indian had to climb a mountain to become a brave.



I said my goodbyes to the Chief and my mom and headed to the mountain. There was a girl that put a sign on her that said Mountain. She crouched down so I could step over her or "climb over the mountain". But before I could do that. There was a snake. The snake was this crazy late 30 year old woman that was very into acting. She slithered and hissed at me and begged me to put me in my pocket and take her up the mountain with me. She promised that she wouldn't hurt me so I let her come in my pocket. She then put both of her hands and leaned into my jacket pocket. ha ha. I was a little taken back. She was really getting into this. :)


I then climbed the mountain and after the snake was supposed to bite me. I was then going to say "you promised you wouldn't hurt me" and she was going to say "you knew what I was when you put me in your pocket". But instead after I climbed the mountain she jumped up and bite my right arm. SHE ACTUALLY BIT my right arm. I jumped so high and YELLED " SHE BITE me...NO- she Really Bit me!!!!" I couldn't focus. I couldn't remember what I was supposed to say. Finally we ended up finishing the skit. One of my friends was in the class and she said "wow- you are really good at acting." I told her that I was not acting. She actually did bite my arm. Luckily I had my jacket on because even with the sleeves on I still had a red bite mark on my right forearm. She totally would have broke skin if I would have had my jacket sleeve up.

As we were walking back to our seats the lady who was the snake said "sorry about that. You didn't realize you needed to get your shots first huh. I just got excited"

I still can't believe it when I think about it. CRAZY day and one that I will never forget! ha ha

I always dream and remember at least one of them every night. My dreams are very detailed but totally CRAZY. I am always telling BJ my dreams in the morning. He will say things like "wow- I wish I could have seen that in a movie" or "I am glad I don't remember my dreams like you because some of yours freak me out".

I had a dream last week that I was pregnant and ended up having the cutest little black baby boy. BJ and I had this big discussion on how it is totally possible. But seriously- he was so cute!

Last night I dreamt that I took BJ snowboarding for the 1st time. We got there and instead of snowboards- there was a huge crowd of people on bikes. So I quickly helped BJ get on a bike. He was freaking out...saying "I can't do this" as he was on the top of a steep snow hill ready to go down on a bike! I quickly taught him how to stop by putting the bike sideways- like a snowboard...cause it is definitely the same thing. He hesitantly agreed to go.

As he was going down I found some of our neighbors Michael and Jamie Scott. They were there snowboarding and thought we were crazy and didn't even acknowledge us. As I heard a ton of people cheering as people were running around the corner. I quickly asked someone in the crowd how long this was going to be. They smiled and said 36 miles. I went down and started cheering for BJ as he came around the bend and was running down the stairs (apparently stairs now appeared). I yelled "good job babe. And it is 36 miles...sorry" ha ha ha

BJ gave me this funniest face of terror and kept running. He was talking with a friend that he made on his journey. While he ran 36 miles- I went shopping with my mom. I found my aunt Michelle Parker who was bragging how she was going to get the same black Friday deals on the 30th of November at Best Buy because her husband works there. She said "we get the left overs of black Friday". Once she realized that her face was all sad.

I then finished shopping with my mom..except that I lost her. Don't worry I found her at the check out. And that is the end